It's been a long time since I've written a massive research paper. I know I've done it before, but the experiential memories are a bit dusty. As a result, I haven't been as efficient as would have been nice in writing my note. Although I've long since had my topic - and it's a good topic - I kept going around in circles while researching, trying to figure out how to find the support I needed and keep track of it so I could include it into a cohesive analysis without getting lost in a tangent. It kept making me dizzy
Fortunately it started turning a corner last week when I finally managed to eke out a significant portion of the analysis. After writing a certain amount I could now see where the rest of the writing needed to go. Then yesterday in a blazing feat of typing speed I finished fleshing it out. Unfortunately the writing is terrible (after I printed it out I noticed some rather creative grammatical construction...) but there was a deadline to turn something in I had to meet. But I think I'm ok: now that there's a structure, which all supports the story I'm trying to tell, I can go back and systematically improve each section.
It's a lot of arduous, somewhat painful, work, but this note is the kind of thing I will be really proud of having written, once I've written it.