I'm still in China. This isn't surprising; I'm not planning on returning until late Wednesday. But this means I will have spent more than a week in a foreign country. I can't remember how long it's been since I've spent more than a week in any one country I wasn't living in. Being here so long is definitely taxing my attention span...
Well, I'm kidding. Kind of. I am actually restless, but it's not really an attention span thing as much as an anxiousness to get on with my life. I have a project to finish, a job to find, a move to make, and a life to get in order. I really want to get started on all this and wandering around China is not helping me do any of these things. This isn't China's fault; there's nothing wrong with it and in the long run I'll be glad I was here. It's been a decent trip so far, and I suspect it to at least remain tolerable for the last few days of it.
But I'm having an increasingly difficult time enjoying it. Today I had to cut my sightseeing short and sit in an Internet cafe just so I could feel like I was making forward progress on things. There's a limit to what I can do from here, but I at least wanted to write this. Blogging has become a necessary release for me, and having not been able to do it for the past few days has added to my edginess. I may not be able to get caught up right now in writing about my trip (the keyboards at this place are awful, so I may write my missing entries by hand and post them later) but I really needed the outlet of writing this. I was practically crawling the walls earlier today, feeling so cut off from my own life, and it's starting to show. I'm still brooding about old annoyances I can't do anything about, I managed to rip myself off earlier today through some inept negotiations with a souvenir vendor... Come on, I'm capable of better than this, but right now I'm really off my game. What I really need right now is to move on, past all this, of law school and the crevass of crap that was July. On the upside I seem to be healing from the psychic wound inflicted by the bar, and despite the march around China I'm much more caught up on sleep. But now I'm really, really ancy to take this new person I've grown to be out for a spin to see what I can do.
Unfortunately the answer is not much from here.